I'll try to sum up my situation as best I can. I turned 21 in June. I'm a guy. In college. I commute, which was a huge mistake. Basically I have no friends. If I died today, I'm sure the funeral would be empty. Before, only a few months ago, I use to make the best of it and play my video games in my room by myself. I'd drive straight home after class. I was avoiding social situations because I was scared of alcohol, scared of being awkward, scared of going to parties and ending up standing in the corner by myself.