by HealthForum » Sat Mar 26, 2011 7:47 pm
i have a very big problem, i harm myself, ill hit my head over and over and ill cut myself sometimes. and i no i have anger problems and i that i have a very big problem with this. it all started when i was about 12 or 13 i lost my mother and got very depressed, around 14 or 15 i started not to really care for anything, i cared for my friends, i cared for my family. but i didnt care about my self, i would go out and get drunk or do drugs and have horrible things happen to me. when at home at times, i got really mad or drunk i would sock holes in the walls, break things, and felt like dying. around 18 or 19 i started hitting myself in the head over and over when i got mad. or often when id fight with my partner. now i am 21 going on 22, just last night my girlfriend got a little mad at me because i asked her for a beer and she doesnt like me to drink so right away i knew that was stupid of me to even ask. so she got mad and went to the bathroom, i sat there feeling so stupid and started to hit myself in the head. then it turned into this crazy argument because i freaked out and hit myself, and she kept asking me to stop but i couldnt i just kept hitting myself crying. all i no is that she doesnt deserve this and neither do i, i want to stop so bad i need help and i dont wanna lose her she is my world i love her so much. shes not gonna put up with for much longer and i dont blame her i wouldnt want to see the person i love hurting themselves it would hurt me so bad. please give me some good advice im desprite for help. what do i do? im scared of what im doing to myself and how it will effect me aswell.